Turning point.

Last Wednesday, 27th October, marked my last day in DDB International. It didn't quite hit me until the farewell party. My last day and my place still looked like I could be hanging around for another few years. Talk about denial! My colleagues were soooo sweet. They made me a video of my years in Naga and DDBi. And a card and a gift. Cried buckets. Guess that was the whole point. They wanted to see me cry.

I miss them so much already. Still refer to them as my colleagues. Still refer to DDBi as my office. Only to be kindly (or unkindly) reminded that they’re not my colleagues anymore. Okay, at least I know they’re still my friends. Good ones too. Went back to the office on Friday (2 days ago) and Prem (my replacement) had done so much to my room (ok, ok, it’s not my room anymore!). Aargh.

I start at Leo Burnett tomorrow. Wonder what it's gonna be like?


The jetsetting life.

Well, for the past week or so I’ve been ‘unemployed’. Went to Bali with my colleagues… er, ex colleagues. It was quite a fun trip… tanned by the pool and at the beach. Went shopping and got myself bruised up at a spa (don’t ask). It was fun. And although the tour was quite badly organised, it was the people that mattered. My last few days as part of the ‘family’.

After flying back from Bali, Li Yen and I flew to Langkawi. The Andaman for 3 days, 2 nights. It was fabulous. The room, the service, the little extras. She gets a few nights free every year (the perks of working with a property company) and 50% off the F&B. Such bliss... We had beer and fries by the beach, a lovely Japanese dinner, an amazing buffet breakfast spread, a dinner at the famous Gulai House… and spent the nights lounging at the… er, lounge. The Solianos were performing. Great music too. Only got to know who they were the night before we left. Got to meddle with Daniel’s keyboard for awhile too. Fun! Some gwailo wanted to buy us drinks but we declined… so much for being sociable. We WERE on our ‘lesbo’ holiday after all . Great fun on the beach and poolside, although the sun was a bit shy while we were there. Watched Hindi and girlie movies on VCD, drank our BLOJ – Bacardi Limon Orange Juice. Cried at the sappy endings. Hahaha.

Before Bali and Langkawi, I managed to squeeze in Singapore to watch Mama Mia! Fantastic musical. So beautifully done… simple set and the songs really got people tapping their feet. Wished I could be part of something like that. So wonderful... Bumped into Soon Yoon and Danny on my way out of the show. And we were all gushing… musicals! Musicals! Musicals… sigh!


Oh, and there’s him…

This has to be one of the weirdest things to happen to me in a long time. Right now, I'm still wondering "What's going on?". But like Li Yen said, maybe I’m going through denial. Can’t blame me though... I haven’t dated anyone for the past 2 years. And even when I was interested in someone, there’s always the small matter of bad timing or circumstance. But well, funny things happen when you least expect them to.

About a month ago, this guy I hadn’t seen in many years found me online. Didn't know him very well back then, but it's always nice to meet an old friend. So we chatted online, did some catching up and boy, was he outrageous! Absolutely shameless, funny as hell, cocky and laser-mouthed. Every conversation was a battle of wits. I actually looked forward to chatting with him when I went to work (fortunately it was the final 2-3 weeks at work for me). He was so full of himself I wondered if he even knew the meaning of modesty. We laughed and laughed, and kept score of our sarcastic comebacks. It was the same with SMS and geez, was he a flirt! So I played along and it became a ‘who-can-keep-this-up’ game.

We finally met up a few days before I left for Bali. He was even worse in person. Thick-faced. But so funny! We actually had fun. Played pool. Both kiasu like hell. We did manage to have some real conversation after, and… beneath that smart ass facade was actually a very sweet guy.

To cut a long story short, I left for Bali, and came back. Then we saw each other before I left for Langkawi. And when I got back, we hung out again. I thought I sensed something between us but thought nothing of it. Wasn’t sure if it was still a game we were playing. Besides, it was much too weird for many reasons. Along the way, many silly conversations later, we found the line between the 'game' and reality blurring... And the fact that he was getting serious about this took me by surprise.

For now, I’m taking it one day at a time. But I do know I’m very happy with him around. Making me laugh. Being silly.Taking long walks. Talking about everything. Maybe, one of these days, I’ll have the guts to stop thinking too much and let my heart take over. Maybe soon.